Keeping Up

May 9, 2012 § Leave a comment

When I started this blog, my goal was to change. CHANGE. That was my word.

I haven’t changed very much. However, there is one thing that I am now 6 days into that I am loving. And that’s a clean kitchen. My kitchen is dull. We live in a rental, and are not allowed to paint cabinets, or they would long be white. But they are not. They are a dreary 1980’s oak. And we have one window in our kitchen that faces the neighbour’s garage. So there isn’t much light. With all of these factors combined, I tend to spend enough time in the kitchen to do what I must do, and then get out. So the mess gets made, but not cleaned up. And then I have to laboriously drag myself into the kitchen once every 3-4 days and spend an hour on it because it’s that nasty.

Last Thursday, late at night, I was fed up. I usually go to bed around 10, since I have a very early morning baby, but this night, it was 11:30 and I was still cleaning. While my precious husband slept on the couch after a late soccer game, I cleaned. And cleaned and cleaned. My dear husband woke up to a bit of a shock – a spotlessly clean kitchen and coffee ready to be made just for him.

I’ve done this before. Obviously it’s not the very first time I’ve cleaned my kitchen. But after a day or two, things start to pile up again. And it’s back to being nasty and disgusting and nowhere I want to be. But this time is different. I’m keeping it up. I am six days in, and my kitchen is still clean. I have an awesome new “mop” (the Rubbermaid Reveal) which allows me to “wash” my floors every day. So now when my kids run into the kitchen I don’t have to yell for them to not eat anything off the floor! Because now, if there is something on the floor, it is most likely something that one of them dropped from their most recent meal. So if they want to eat it, that’s fine with me.

I’m finding myself with a lot of time on my hands now that the kitchen is clean. Not because I spent so much time cleaning it before, but because I spent so much time thinking about cleaning it before.

Now if only I could keep up with the laundry…

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The “New Me”

January 9, 2012 § Leave a comment

It’s a new year. And I spent the last two months of the old year waiting for this new year. To say I was ready for 2012 is an understatement. With every fibre of my being, I wished for 2012 to come faster. 2011 was probably the most difficult year of my life, as well as my wonderful DH’s life. PB1 (Precious Boy 1) and PB2 (Precious Boy 2) had no idea how challenged Mommy and Daddy were on a daily basis.

So welcome to the new me. I spent December really thinking about how I wanted to change in 2012. All of December. I want to change how I look. I want to change how I parent. I want to change the kind of wife that I am. I want to change the kind of Christian I am. Making New Years’ resolutions seemed futile, since nobody keeps them, and it was overwhelming to see that I wanted to change every single aspect of my life.

My husband is in the exact same boat as I am – he wanted to change everything as well. So I adopted a new phrase for the year. I’m going to “try harder”. It seems simple. It seems like it’s a cop-out. We all know the famous phrase – “do or do not, there is no try”. In my case, there is a try. I know I’m not going to succeed in every thing I put my hands to change. At least not the first time. Or the second time. But I am going to try. I’m going to try to change how I look (started P90x yesterday, and b0y does it burn!). I’m going to try to change how I parent (I spent an hour cuddled with PB1 on the couch watching Animal Mechanicals, and the Saveums this morning). I’m going to try to change the kind of wife that I am (I am working on not griping for nothing, and putting more effort into loving and encouraging), and I’m definitely working on being a better Christian (waking up before my kids – HUGE sacrifice for me, and spending time with God before anything else).

This blog is about me becoming new. That’s why it’s a metamorphosis. I want it to be a complete and total change for our family. We are eating healthier – which means I am making more from scratch. We are spending less money – which means we are doing more at home. We are changing how we look – together. We are changing our marriage – together. We are changing our kids – together.

A lot of people think the problem with the world is the breakdown of the American family. I tend to agree. We are reinstating the “American Family”. We are a family first. We are individuals second.

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